As I write this blog on the Midnight where the new year awaits me in 40 minutes, all I tend to do is blog at the moment.
The day started with a dream to see the video of Ramta Jogi (the song I am currrently listening to) .
All sites worked fine except Ramta Jogi on the Morning of this Tuesday , the 31st Dec of 2013 .
Suddently , a call from Appa .
The lion has stopped roaring. It found the zoo to be very bad and was keen on returning to the Den. But , life was too late to make it to the tiem.
Off the 14 odd hours of this day , I spent 6 hours in front of the dead body of periyappa.
Life sometimes makes the day the most unexpected affair of the year.
2013 was the year , I searched for optimism , the time when I searched for my innate self for the definition of what it needed to be .
The gate is opening. End of blog.
Hope the next year fares well too :)
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Sunday, October 27, 2013
When you are unable to accept the truth - An MP Analysis
1. This
happens when the first person tries to match the reality which are going at a
pace than what he can accelerate upto.
Who said this is it? You can go at a higher pace than this .
This is just the start of the journey. The major parts if covered now will give
scope for making up scenes you never expected to face.
2. When
the amount of cheering exceeds expectations.
-na-
3. Sometimes
you will reach junctures when the road to be taken is mis-matching against the
thoughts. We know it is good to go through but there is a sense of danger.
The other road has only dangers. Think of the girl who married at 22 , isn’t
she living good. Don’t you feel the sense for need of a partner? “Wait and live”-
is all that I got to tell.
4. Mind
has higher ambitions even though you know you are living a good life.
This is absolutely normal. There is nothing to worry about. All
you did was learn and take up decision that would delude you from presumptions
where life would take you into.
5. Lack
of perfections in thoughts.
What is perfection? You got nothing more to tell us right?
6. Persistence
of numb feeling.
Shut up and drive
7. Feel
of becoming betrayed and preyed.
Shame ,Shame puppy shame !!
8. When
you feel you are becoming your own villain.
It is not a no , but not an yes too . Everybody gets to see
their own villain and heroes over course of time. Control your tongue is all I
got to tell you.
9. Lack
of vision about future.
Life at its best. Live upto it fully. Long visions are good ,
have them in target , don’t think about tomorrow or next year , live for what
you are going to be 20 years from now.
10. Aint
it too early for all these.
Baah , retirement plans, I gonna work till the day I die and
you feel this is early.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
The SAW
This is something that I have always wanted to write about. There are variety of characters that I have met up in these 24 years of life. As I am about to complete quarter of my life in this world, I found a strange me within my self.
There is someone who likes to be damn arrogant who is trying to setup strange examples among innocent beings and in the meantime acting to be nice from outside . I sometimes think , it is the real me.
I had a call with Tejas , a new customer , as the call proceeded, I could feel the pressure building, for a moment, I felt, I was spoon feeding someone who refused to read the document.
The tone changed. It was a tough tone , a damn tough tone, I rarely address customer as 'Man', BUT this time, I decided, it is gonna be Tejas and Man.
As the meeting proceeded and I fixed issue by issue, the questions started to flow tremendously, of course he was trying to grasp everything from me . All of a sudden , I checked the time, it was 7:12. Exactly 72 minutes gone by, THIS is all I had to tell before closing the call:
I am having a meeting in 3 mins and I gotta end this webex. I am marking this case for closure and if you get any new ones, please raise a new case and will take it from there. There was surprize, he said , you gotta wait till I confirm, I asked, why wait when the issue is resolved.
There was a pause , I said - LET me know if you got any concerns. There was a shift of tone, it said - YES.
Sometimes, the question of character comes to play with the act of professionalism. People might write this and that on the former, but this experience that I am gaining is what is gonna turn about the situation.
Tough times with tough people, it simple makes you tougher. Sometimes, it might lead to a complete downfall. Whatsover the case might be, be sure that nothing is gonna change that attitude which is stuck and make sure , you are not digging your grave anymore.
The saw always digs for the other, not for itself.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Half Century
I happen to do things that normal people take up 10 years from now. I am writing this article after fixing 6 customer issues on 6 different webex calls.
Kind of stressed but what to do :(.. Life is like that . Maibe I have to take vacation was the thought, but it is already booked 2 weeks later.
Happiness in one way. Stress in another. Atleast , I am the only self dependent is the thought . Let us see where life leads me to .
Kind of stressed but what to do :(.. Life is like that . Maibe I have to take vacation was the thought, but it is already booked 2 weeks later.
Happiness in one way. Stress in another. Atleast , I am the only self dependent is the thought . Let us see where life leads me to .
Thursday, July 4, 2013
When you feel old
http://cricket.yahoo.com/news/18-cricketing-facts-that-will-make-you-feel-old-154242001.html
This link really took me long back in life. I still remember , the kid that used to sit and watch cricket.
The kid who stood out of his eyes and it was like yesterday. With Jadeja batting at 88 and India needed to win this to grab hold of the cup and news breaking out later , Alas , I miss them damn it.
I remember Hansie Cronje cricket cards and Azhar's sweep cards were exchanged for cards 88-129 , total of 41 cards. I still have them somewhere in home.
Life is all about your greatest treasures and those you collected during a period which you thought was more valuable than anything else.
I have no idea where my coins and stamps are now , but I do remember making close to 8 albums fill of stamps and the young world articles that showed up some stamps with the description and worth of them.
I dont know what happened to young world but I do remember the fight with my pals related to who is worth what is terms of their collections.
Life stands in front of you telling to live it the way you want and you think other are the ones who pave the way for you.
Like Vikram said, its is like - you future rests in your hands, it is completely in you to decide whether you are old or not but what I read today did make me feel old. Of course, what can a premature baby think when he is 23 and looks 39 :( .
Lal and mamookka are also 50 plus. Damn it , I still miss those good days :-( .
This link really took me long back in life. I still remember , the kid that used to sit and watch cricket.
The kid who stood out of his eyes and it was like yesterday. With Jadeja batting at 88 and India needed to win this to grab hold of the cup and news breaking out later , Alas , I miss them damn it.
I remember Hansie Cronje cricket cards and Azhar's sweep cards were exchanged for cards 88-129 , total of 41 cards. I still have them somewhere in home.
Life is all about your greatest treasures and those you collected during a period which you thought was more valuable than anything else.
I have no idea where my coins and stamps are now , but I do remember making close to 8 albums fill of stamps and the young world articles that showed up some stamps with the description and worth of them.
I dont know what happened to young world but I do remember the fight with my pals related to who is worth what is terms of their collections.
Life stands in front of you telling to live it the way you want and you think other are the ones who pave the way for you.
Like Vikram said, its is like - you future rests in your hands, it is completely in you to decide whether you are old or not but what I read today did make me feel old. Of course, what can a premature baby think when he is 23 and looks 39 :( .
Lal and mamookka are also 50 plus. Damn it , I still miss those good days :-( .
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Raghu Chronicles : When I heard the Boogiest of them all
Prabhu the husband
Rohini the wife
Indu the driver
Vinod the Neighbour
Vikasini mother of Adriksha
Adriksha the first one aka Jana
Madhu - The cam girl
These are the events that were heard by Raghu who happened to work with Prabhu.
#################################################
As we sat for lunch, we saw Prabhu laughing at the windows. It was heavily raining outside ....
"When the night of 13 June stuck nine pre mid , there was a sudden booming of clouds .
When the droplets counted to millions, the bus stop at Rikey Nagara was flooding. "
Whenver it rained, the giant was seen laughing and no one had the guts to speak to him. The heart was weeping but the mind projected it as a broad mouth with vibrating throat with a big roar.
"Rohini was standing at the bus stop and there was no sign of the 14A bus. Another 100 wasted she thought , just as the next rickshaw driver stopped"
#################################################
He remembered advising , never ever wear short skirts to office on monsoon days. But she was always adamant : "I had to leave only for 10 days" - but why on the 10th day he thought . "What went wrong that she decided to go for public transport ? "
#################################################
" Every penny is important, I will wait for the bus" she thought.
#################################################
It was the evening of 10th April , there was a cry at the hospital. The medical report showed, she will never be a mom. The femininity of the wife was questioned. The husband had frustrations. After all, his wife was the only family that he had.
Slowly, the attitude started to change. After marriage struggle made them realize many realities. Life was becoming less lively. Love making was more of a duty and not a passionate process.
The one who had advised on alcohol had to consume it to make the nidra . Prabhu had to bear it all.
#################################################
3 years ago:
Adriksha was getting ready for the day as this was the moment when she had to get dressed up and make up her thoughts .
Her mom was busy making the sweets and savories. "It is the taste of the snacks and the proudy of our parampara that is going to make this work. My little goddess deserves more . " - Vika thought
##################################################
Ever since the birth, Indu was single . His mom and dad had passed away during childhood and he was brought up by his uncle.
The advice given was , "live for one girl who is going to be there for you for the rest of your life tiem".
You will get her or destiny will make you find her. That one day, you life will change.
The day, he saw Adriksha , he decided, she is the one. But self - respect made him not to tell it to her. But , there was enough courage to go to her mom and tell, "I would like to marry your daughter. "
**********
"Yes, there is demand for ladies these days due to the difference in sex ratio, I can reject too". What do you think, I will marry a driver and live the rest of my life in a locked house serving you and your uncle, who always boozes . We need to shift to an independent house and your uncle can come and leave.
" I have been single all my life, I have not tasted a girl or even spoken to one. Everything was for you and now dont talk stupid"
"You dont know how to speak to woman"
"What , you are telling? You have spoken to many men and are judging me. I cannot bear this anymore . This is hurting me. My uncle is ,my mom and dad to me. I cannot leave him alone. He will die rather than being alone. "
"What did you just speak ? " Get out of my house-, mid aged Vikasini could not wait for more words from Indu.
What had thought to be the happiest day happened to be a worst one in their lives.
********
Hearing what had happened in Vikasini aunt's house, Vinod was happy . "Even though , I am unemployed and enjoying life, there are still chances of me scoring Jana."
As days passed by , Vinod managed to get a temporary post at the Advocates office. Daily wage of 100.
This was when , the thought arouse, I will propose Jana . "Why should she reject me ?"
********
"Get me the bouquet of red roses . How much ? 200 ah . No , then get me a single rose . "
Standing in-front of the Jagannatha temple, the proposal was made and accepted.
*********
3 weeks before the marriage:
"Jana , my uncle is no more. I always lived for you and am still living for you . The last time , he was the reason, now he is gone. Can you live with me ?" - Indu asked
"What you are telling ? It is my marriage in 20 days and you are asking me to marry you . Dont be a fool Indu. You have to find another girl Indu . This is real life, I have fallen in love with someone else and decided to live the rest of my life with him. I am sorry for your uncle. My mother always opposed the company of people who drink and did not want your uncle to hinder our lives, that is why I spoke like that . Please dont mis-understand"
##########################################
"Rohini was my god and she will be my idol for ever. She was the most courageous woman I met . But , why is it that that , I had to do it. " - Prabhu laughed.
##########################################
Days later:
"Aaah , beat me. Beat me till I bleed. " - Eva shouted. It was bondage porn on the screen and some alcohol on the right hand. Indu did not have any other option.
The words that ran were: - " How can Madhu speak like that , I paid her and she has to serve me instead."
"What had happened was not in my hands. It was life and destiny that lead to it. But marrying a daily wage is stupid . I am driver , she should not have done it. "
Alas Jana, you life is like this now.
******************
The actual scene:
It was hotcams.com . There were new performers who had to somehow make it to the top by gaining 1000 points. There was Indu who was desperate for a woman. But a real woman would make it the end of his singularhood. It was both love for Jana and self - respect that made him not touch any other woman.
When , Madhu happened to enter the camera , there was Indu at other end. The eyes were same , the face was same . When she had to do the show, it was like , a man shouting at the womanhood of a lady. This was a performer who happened to not love her job. After all , she was an Indian born in the lower class of the society who was struggling each day of her life.
Jana, I will give not only 1000 but even 10000 points for you. The hope in Madhu arouse, this time , it was full nude and not a semi nude one. The show was over, it was a pervert in the form of Indu on the other end. Show me more , give me more, bend , open your mouth.
But , just the usual 15 points at the end. Madhu felt she was cheated with wrong hopes. But , the microphone was still running. She asked- " Jaanu, number bol".
Then started the real stuff on phone. Somehow, the poison was forming on either ends . It ended in these words.
"FUCK A CORPSE CHOD"
******************
Rohini the wife
Indu the driver
Vinod the Neighbour
Vikasini mother of Adriksha
Adriksha the first one aka Jana
Madhu - The cam girl
These are the events that were heard by Raghu who happened to work with Prabhu.
#################################################
As we sat for lunch, we saw Prabhu laughing at the windows. It was heavily raining outside ....
"When the night of 13 June stuck nine pre mid , there was a sudden booming of clouds .
When the droplets counted to millions, the bus stop at Rikey Nagara was flooding. "
Whenver it rained, the giant was seen laughing and no one had the guts to speak to him. The heart was weeping but the mind projected it as a broad mouth with vibrating throat with a big roar.
"Rohini was standing at the bus stop and there was no sign of the 14A bus. Another 100 wasted she thought , just as the next rickshaw driver stopped"
#################################################
He remembered advising , never ever wear short skirts to office on monsoon days. But she was always adamant : "I had to leave only for 10 days" - but why on the 10th day he thought . "What went wrong that she decided to go for public transport ? "
#################################################
" Every penny is important, I will wait for the bus" she thought.
#################################################
It was the evening of 10th April , there was a cry at the hospital. The medical report showed, she will never be a mom. The femininity of the wife was questioned. The husband had frustrations. After all, his wife was the only family that he had.
Slowly, the attitude started to change. After marriage struggle made them realize many realities. Life was becoming less lively. Love making was more of a duty and not a passionate process.
The one who had advised on alcohol had to consume it to make the nidra . Prabhu had to bear it all.
#################################################
3 years ago:
Adriksha was getting ready for the day as this was the moment when she had to get dressed up and make up her thoughts .
Her mom was busy making the sweets and savories. "It is the taste of the snacks and the proudy of our parampara that is going to make this work. My little goddess deserves more . " - Vika thought
##################################################
Ever since the birth, Indu was single . His mom and dad had passed away during childhood and he was brought up by his uncle.
The advice given was , "live for one girl who is going to be there for you for the rest of your life tiem".
You will get her or destiny will make you find her. That one day, you life will change.
The day, he saw Adriksha , he decided, she is the one. But self - respect made him not to tell it to her. But , there was enough courage to go to her mom and tell, "I would like to marry your daughter. "
**********
"Yes, there is demand for ladies these days due to the difference in sex ratio, I can reject too". What do you think, I will marry a driver and live the rest of my life in a locked house serving you and your uncle, who always boozes . We need to shift to an independent house and your uncle can come and leave.
" I have been single all my life, I have not tasted a girl or even spoken to one. Everything was for you and now dont talk stupid"
"You dont know how to speak to woman"
"What , you are telling? You have spoken to many men and are judging me. I cannot bear this anymore . This is hurting me. My uncle is ,my mom and dad to me. I cannot leave him alone. He will die rather than being alone. "
"What did you just speak ? " Get out of my house-, mid aged Vikasini could not wait for more words from Indu.
What had thought to be the happiest day happened to be a worst one in their lives.
********
Hearing what had happened in Vikasini aunt's house, Vinod was happy . "Even though , I am unemployed and enjoying life, there are still chances of me scoring Jana."
As days passed by , Vinod managed to get a temporary post at the Advocates office. Daily wage of 100.
This was when , the thought arouse, I will propose Jana . "Why should she reject me ?"
********
"Get me the bouquet of red roses . How much ? 200 ah . No , then get me a single rose . "
Standing in-front of the Jagannatha temple, the proposal was made and accepted.
*********
3 weeks before the marriage:
"Jana , my uncle is no more. I always lived for you and am still living for you . The last time , he was the reason, now he is gone. Can you live with me ?" - Indu asked
"What you are telling ? It is my marriage in 20 days and you are asking me to marry you . Dont be a fool Indu. You have to find another girl Indu . This is real life, I have fallen in love with someone else and decided to live the rest of my life with him. I am sorry for your uncle. My mother always opposed the company of people who drink and did not want your uncle to hinder our lives, that is why I spoke like that . Please dont mis-understand"
##########################################
"Rohini was my god and she will be my idol for ever. She was the most courageous woman I met . But , why is it that that , I had to do it. " - Prabhu laughed.
##########################################
Days later:
"Aaah , beat me. Beat me till I bleed. " - Eva shouted. It was bondage porn on the screen and some alcohol on the right hand. Indu did not have any other option.
The words that ran were: - " How can Madhu speak like that , I paid her and she has to serve me instead."
"What had happened was not in my hands. It was life and destiny that lead to it. But marrying a daily wage is stupid . I am driver , she should not have done it. "
Alas Jana, you life is like this now.
******************
The actual scene:
It was hotcams.com . There were new performers who had to somehow make it to the top by gaining 1000 points. There was Indu who was desperate for a woman. But a real woman would make it the end of his singularhood. It was both love for Jana and self - respect that made him not touch any other woman.
When , Madhu happened to enter the camera , there was Indu at other end. The eyes were same , the face was same . When she had to do the show, it was like , a man shouting at the womanhood of a lady. This was a performer who happened to not love her job. After all , she was an Indian born in the lower class of the society who was struggling each day of her life.
Jana, I will give not only 1000 but even 10000 points for you. The hope in Madhu arouse, this time , it was full nude and not a semi nude one. The show was over, it was a pervert in the form of Indu on the other end. Show me more , give me more, bend , open your mouth.
But , just the usual 15 points at the end. Madhu felt she was cheated with wrong hopes. But , the microphone was still running. She asked- " Jaanu, number bol".
Then started the real stuff on phone. Somehow, the poison was forming on either ends . It ended in these words.
"FUCK A CORPSE CHOD"
******************
MAY n JUNE MOMENTS
Well, loads to speaks of :
1. Friend's aunt dies due to cancer and brought memories of what happened 21 years back at Karamana.
2. Paala paaty is no more.
3. Jiah Khan suicide !
4. I have been idle and enjoying life. Troubleshoot with whatever clues you find. Idiots are writing software and I have to suffer. Later I realized that the idiots need to sit and think intead of me raising CRs. Dumb logging, wrong logic, lack of ideas on how threading works and finally , no persons to QA . Who really cares customer himself laughs and tells WTF :-) .
5. It is raining heavily and Kedanath is underwater !
6. Modi Maharaj gets his shield . But the king need to fight for his victory as allies are washing hands.
7. Facebook and Microsoft agree on project PRISM.
8. Realized that any type of events will have an explanation even though whatever reason the reality is attributed to .
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