Dard – e - Zindagitheque

                                                  

There have been loads of mishaps around.

 A 41 year old suicides along with a 27 year old neighbour. No one knows if they are inter-linked.

Kishore goes to his school to sees his teachers !!.

There happened to be a virtual occasion where two teens were seen laughing and a boy humiliated as usual and ended with him off away crying . I have no idea how the mood changed.

A Russio Canadian gets pissed at my activities and tells me to analyse instead of solve J.

An elder comments on the differences between loving a girl and loving a woman. Well , the extent to which he thinks is quite justifiable. The main point was , you marry a girl and live with a woman and you are just a 23 year old kid .

Another moment was when you cheer and later sit quite thinking what am I supposed to speak. This is that weird moment when you realize  , it is upto you to make things work .

Sukumari is dead L.

Life happens to be such a thing where the situations of happiness lead you to end up with a can of worms and the worst part being you think of how to hand over the can of worms to your neighbor instead of opening the can and cooking the worms .

I had to stammer in order to understand a stutterer during a five 9 call. Might sound cruel, but I did it in my mind (the stammering part) . Speaking of stammerers , I always wanted to write about the people whom I have met in life who happened to dribble .The best thing of such people, the personality they bear happens to make it the most memorable moment that I lived with them:

Mithun, my childhood friend. Whenever he said Kishore , it was kkkkk – e – shor . I used to go to his home after school during 1^st and 2^nd standard. There used to be lots of snakes in the way to home and dad decided I stay at Mithun’s home after school till he comes to pick me up. We watched – Independence day , Dunston Checks in, Godzilla and some oldies together in a video cassette player. His mom used to make us some really good food and they were always surprised and happy seeing me. I never have been to his some to see him since. I have been ignorant. The latest news I got was he was paralysed and his dad is looking after him. There are a lot of prayers going around for him. I hope he gets back and starts driving the taxi called life and make it to the best conditions again.

“IT KINDA OFFENDS ME TELLING THE WORD STUTTERER. SO I A GOING TO REFER EM ALL BY NAME. “

Mani Periyappa : Vaikom Subrahmania Iyer (age 78) , the son of Vaikom Gopalakrishna Iyer. My father’s eldest brother in terms of age. I see him weekly and whenever he is in steady state of mind , he repeats and struggles. It just takes few seconds to change the frequency to a steady stream of words and that is when you debate this giant knowledge base with points that you learnt from google. Whether it be Smultronstallet or Orson Welles, he knows everything. Retired 20 years back and still fighting with his sister in law, he lives about 500 metres from my work place. It seems to be written in my head that I get to live with this google during this period of life.  

Sweta : This girl happens to be my classmate. I do not know much of her. One incident that comes to my mind is on that occurred during 2001 at Kodunganoor at my school. I was in 6^th Standard and our English teacher was aaahm , Rukmini madam. I recently spoke to mam on the phone, she now works at Varkala and continues to teach the language. The incident is not related to madam , it is related to Akshay Sharma. Well, this girl struggled reading the chapters aloud when the teachers asked us to do it one by one. Well, this fella Akshay happens to be a naughty boy (a "********" now I guess) , he likes to lit up dead candles . Whenever, there was a trouble pronouncing the word (I remember , it was “responsible”) . Well, the first ‘s’ was okay, the second one lasted for 2 to 3 seconds and suddenly a shout out in the form of “RESPONSIBLE” was pronounced by the fat boy. This was just the advent of what happened out to be an embarrassing moment for the girl and she broke out at the end. Kinda touchy moment. God knows what these people are doing now L .

Abhinav: He works at my office. I have heard him struggle speaking to the customers. Well, he is a product specialist and does his job well during escalations and complicated situations. That is all that is takes for him no matter how the problem is. There is a lot of inspiration from an experienced person in the form of Danny Xavier that nurtures this budding talent. There is a silent acknowledgement in the form of a nod whenever I see his face. Makes me happy seeing the confidence and courage that this great worker bears !

Makdee girl : The girl among the twins that struggles to speak. Another classic character from a Vishal Bharadwaj movie !!

Kaminey kapoor : Another Vishal’s character. The scene where Shahid sings to gives the statement at police station in the form of a songs . OMG , how does it take for the pen to yield this out of the brain. Simply a great one.

Special 26 Fake officer : This was a cameo but still he makes us remember the character with some flawless performance. Made me feel guilty at the end to realize even he was cheated by the heroes . Hope there is a second part where he gets a better part to play. 

There are lots of other people whom I have met , but the above people have made a difference in my life as they still live in and made a day at some point in time . 

I thank you all. 

When the mood simply glows bright

The beat of the surrounding simply determines the way you think. The excitement you experience is something that you never thought would be possible in ways beyond words and when there is a rhythm to add to the vibration, it simply gets from higher to the highest level. 

Such a day was what I experienced a week back on the night before this Monday. I wanted to cry but self respect was making me not to . I keep thinking whether I was right or wrong, the past it created is what I will experience in the future . Why is that there are far more important things that I need to accomplish , maybe Kishore is never gonna make it to the extent he becomes of dreaming, be it in terms of thoughts or reality, but he never realizes when he has breached the gore outta himself. 

A strange feeling surpassed today when I found that the 80 year daughter was not informed about the heart attack of her 94 year old mother. Valli paatty, I know you are gonna be thinking if you will ever make it to my marriage. The word was , you gonna make to a centurion in terms of age, but you have already crossed it in terms lief. I know there are loads of stones that you have kept unturned for the next generation . Most of which are going to be driven forth by a vehicle called life, some might turn , some might powder be it through me or though my blood. One of the most important moments was when I saw you travelling back to Chennai at a cold morning in Banglore at 5 AM. I caught a bus a 4 AM from Byapanahalli , something I will cherish my whole lifetiem. 

Hearing to songs when I write is making a different self out of me. I realize this is something that makes people listen of music. Felt like beating some people to pulp for no reason after discussing Fight Club yesterday. Hope Bangalore did really have one, one at the last few floors of Infa , it is gonna be possible someday that there are some 10 cars creating an area surrounding where two fellas are gonna beat the pulp outta each other and the whole building is dark with the indicator lights of the ten cars alone blinking and the best cheering crowd of em all to glee the goriest. 

When you are beaten upto pulp and your right cheek has bled to such an extent , that it simply rests by de-erecting outta the face and all of a sudden there is this feel of what you have been upto and a crowd silent enough to get shocked seeing what just happend , "what the heck am I doing here and why is this guy bleeding ." Suddenly you get out of the peak state and get to the highest levels crying outta joy. You change when you have such a day to live. 

Boy!! ,you need experience whether it be love or hatred. 

People you long to be with, people you are fed up with, people who you fantasize being with, people who make you feel embarrassed, people who make you turn about and salute, people who truly give you goosesbumps, people who make you laugh due to their innate being that they expose with pride, people who make you laugh due to happiness, people who support, people who play life with you , people who give you pleasure, people you take pleasure from, people who accompany , people who make you lead, people you lead , people who lead you , the person who just made this spit outta your mind . 

Did I miss something, I hell did yeah ! People who fancy you . 

The times when you realize that beauty is realized out your taste when you feel that the appearance is not what matters and it is the reality that need to be realized and that moment when you suffer the inability to think of anything else other than the sheer effort god put in carving that piece and the probability that struck time to slice the most important second of them all to actualize what you call piece de resistance . All of em make what you call a day and being born as one of the above does matter as you churn a different self out of each of them to make a different character out of your own self and define it a way to thought which totallly makes this life the awesomesst thing to live !!!!!

I hope I never vomit this much hereafter .

ISNT THERE ANYTHING TO REASON FOR THIS EXISTENCE

As I write this blog , I am two days away from visiting another corner of this world. This time , it is the place famous for the most beautiful sidewalks and my herd is full of chunks of lives that are older and experienced than me. Sometimes, I feel honored to be part of them. Mostly, its kinda lonely and there is a load of thoughts flowing in. There are lives dependent on me and that is the part where I feel the role coming in.

Today, listening to this piece was making the day and there were lots of goosebumps flowing. The melody simply gets you dissolved and the moment there is crash of the server. the feel of frustration that strangles your mind is simply inexpressible . But one word simply get you start up the fight . There is vengeance , there is a glory to restore despite all the problems being faced.

Opening the people directory in my desktop made me feel so proud today. At some point, I was proving myself under the service of troubled people. What was captcha to bear!

It is like visualizing the trick that the magician uses to allure the audience and the feel when you fetch the applause. Somethings that really keeps me going is the satisfaction of making it to the closest level even though the guru finally makes his entrance to give the great advice and rca the great puzzle.

Raghu is still alive. Tho, there is very less of travel and free flow of thoughts these days. Maibe , there is a need of break . I remember someone telling, this is real life and you gotta make it work.

Everytime it is Monday, it all of a suddenly becomes Friday. The longest period for which I remain idle is the weekend. This could be a phase of my existence and learning , but when am I gonna make a better justification of thyself .

There are blocks, turns, stones , rivers , bridges and loads of other things to pass by . Gotta wait for each of em'.

Life , I am gonna catch you back in black !! It has been more than a year and I am getting the feel of Kannada with all those words feeding in.

"TO BE LIVING AT A PLACE LIKE THIS REQUIRES LOADS OF TALENTS "

When the sun rises in the east and,
shous towards the west,
the chirp that rises prolongates itself
to heave the greatest sigh in human mind

I am born another day
as a different human with
Senses that refuse to breach the
Normal levels of what it is supposed to;

With terms that savage to protest
the normal behavior of every empathist

I defend the minds or newborn
I reflect the senses of mutinies
I raise the level of thinking
I enlighten the day with sharpness

I yield the best outcomes of every being
You may call me as the addressee

Oppurtunity Postponed

I write this on Independence day sitting at INFA. An opportunity awaited for 3 months just got extended to 9. Misery surrounds me. With tolerance breaching all the levels that usually saturate to

Yes it is beaten the usual thresholds . Blame is not to be taken by anyone other than the conductor.
But it has opened its way for something more than what is planned.

Yeah, life just turn out quite the way you want it be.

Dyanamism RULES!!

In the Simplest Terms

With an eyebrow raised , he stared at the pics that his son was giggling at. What the hell is happening. There was no camera when it happened, but how come!! Sometimes, you cant reason the reality as it simply gets you surprized . "You need to grow up dad " said his happy son sitting near him. 

Mom never showed his sons pics when he was 1 or two. Whenever a photo was about to be taken , Raghu's dad used to dress up him the way he was born . Seeing those pics in FB was some kinda surprize to him. What was more surprizing was the feel of getting to know that his mom had an efbee account.

The Software Engineer

I brew beer I taste wine I live in Bangalore I love to eat I love sleep
I rarely walk Minicular details of life never really hurt me
It is ignorance and selfishness that rule here
They tell it is all about good relations and happens to be true that
I am planning to spend the rest of ma life at this wonderful place of multi dialects and people.
Maybe the place I work is going through a tough financial period as of now.
However, my hopes are  running high on what is done.
Yesterday , I requested my dad for my demat account .

I joined this place as employee on June 4th and it has been more than a month.
Maybe I have been dreaming less these days as it is reality that happens to interest me more here.

I hope life does turns out to be what I not expect out of it.

DYANMISM rules !!