The beat of the surrounding simply determines the way you think. The excitement you experience is something that you never thought would be possible in ways beyond words and when there is a rhythm to add to the vibration, it simply gets from higher to the highest level.
Such a day was what I experienced a week back on the night before this Monday. I wanted to cry but self respect was making me not to . I keep thinking whether I was right or wrong, the past it created is what I will experience in the future . Why is that there are far more important things that I need to accomplish , maybe Kishore is never gonna make it to the extent he becomes of dreaming, be it in terms of thoughts or reality, but he never realizes when he has breached the gore outta himself.
A strange feeling surpassed today when I found that the 80 year daughter was not informed about the heart attack of her 94 year old mother. Valli paatty, I know you are gonna be thinking if you will ever make it to my marriage. The word was , you gonna make to a centurion in terms of age, but you have already crossed it in terms lief. I know there are loads of stones that you have kept unturned for the next generation . Most of which are going to be driven forth by a vehicle called life, some might turn , some might powder be it through me or though my blood. One of the most important moments was when I saw you travelling back to Chennai at a cold morning in Banglore at 5 AM. I caught a bus a 4 AM from Byapanahalli , something I will cherish my whole lifetiem.
Hearing to songs when I write is making a different self out of me. I realize this is something that makes people listen of music. Felt like beating some people to pulp for no reason after discussing Fight Club yesterday. Hope Bangalore did really have one, one at the last few floors of Infa , it is gonna be possible someday that there are some 10 cars creating an area surrounding where two fellas are gonna beat the pulp outta each other and the whole building is dark with the indicator lights of the ten cars alone blinking and the best cheering crowd of em all to glee the goriest.
When you are beaten upto pulp and your right cheek has bled to such an extent , that it simply rests by de-erecting outta the face and all of a sudden there is this feel of what you have been upto and a crowd silent enough to get shocked seeing what just happend , "what the heck am I doing here and why is this guy bleeding ." Suddenly you get out of the peak state and get to the highest levels crying outta joy. You change when you have such a day to live.
Boy!! ,you need experience whether it be love or hatred.
People you long to be with, people you are fed up with, people who you fantasize being with, people who make you feel embarrassed, people who make you turn about and salute, people who truly give you goosesbumps, people who make you laugh due to their innate being that they expose with pride, people who make you laugh due to happiness, people who support, people who play life with you , people who give you pleasure, people you take pleasure from, people who accompany , people who make you lead, people you lead , people who lead you , the person who just made this spit outta your mind .
Did I miss something, I hell did yeah ! People who fancy you .
The times when you realize that beauty is realized out your taste when you feel that the appearance is not what matters and it is the reality that need to be realized and that moment when you suffer the inability to think of anything else other than the sheer effort god put in carving that piece and the probability that struck time to slice the most important second of them all to actualize what you call piece de resistance . All of em make what you call a day and being born as one of the above does matter as you churn a different self out of each of them to make a different character out of your own self and define it a way to thought which totallly makes this life the awesomesst thing to live !!!!!
I hope I never vomit this much hereafter .
